It Continues

Hopeless may be too severe
As would optimistic.

Devastation seems dramatic
So does Euphoria.

Once again, I feel caught in the inbetween.
Stuck.
waiting.
impatient.

I anticipated this feeling would happen even while in the adoption process; I did not imagine it being as intense as the infertility process.

It continues.
It remains.
It subtly steals joy from simple moments.

It endorses anxiety, nervousness, doubt.

Despite support, it seems a lifetime away...adoption.

Heather