'normal?'

I'm starting to feel normal again.
I use normal 'losely', but I've regained some sense of myself.
I let out a sigh and it's relief.

We can actually plan for something. We can actually think about what might be next.

I do not imagine it will be easy or simple, as it never is.
I imagine this will be heartbreaking, frustrating, confusing, and tiresome.

It's different, because it means we will, absolutely, somehow be parents.
We will get to say that.
I will be called a mom.
Josh will be called a dad.

heartbreak, frustration, confusion, worries, money....

It's all a means to an inspiring ending.


- Heather