Relief

I'm happy to shut the door to the past.
The dark place I once was only a few months ago seems distant
in my memory.
It seems surreal.

I've not allowed myself to get truly excited yet, though I'm beyond ecstatic.
Beaming.

We still have a long ways to go.
We haven't even really yet begun, but I can't wait to have it happen.
To have it be real.
To experience something so unbelievable and incredible that my mind cannot even comprehend it yet.

Anxiously waiting
until the day
that I may be called,
a mother.


- Heather